Dreams

I decided to follow my dreams. Or at least this what seems to be my dreams right now.
I didn't apply for the job I wrote about before (a couple of days ago?). It is true that I really do need a change at work. I have to do something new, something different, something more creative or at least satisfying in any possible way. But I don't want this particular job, because I am not ready for the commitments it brings.
I had my moments of hesitation and silent conversations with myself, arguing about all the benefits I could gain from getting the job and, on the other hand, the disadvantages...
In the end, while I was emailing with the head of heads of my workplace (I don't really know how this happened, but I didn't start it for sure!), I ended up explaining - I think more to myself than to the "higher power" - why I won't even try.

Dreams - I think that they slightly change with us, while we are growing up, meeting different people, face new situations and reflect on them... I always ALWAYS, which means since I was about five and I learned how to read and write, wanted to become a writer. Well, that's not a job you can really learn and much depends of your talent and also determination, because writing is a long, slow and hard process... So, as you can imagine, that didn't go well so far. I have tried journalism writing and I am pretty good at it. I started blogging. I had a few ideas for a book, but while I was in high school I switched for a while into cinema and my ideas were more about creating scenarios for my movies in the future :)
Anyway. I met many people in my life and some of them had significant influence on me. I've been to a couple places and experienced things that are hard for me to describe in words. This all led to shaping my way of seeing things... And I understood recently, that it's not just about writing. It's about sharing the thoughts, about having something to say to the world. And even if I am never able to actually write about this something, I could at least try to share my thoughts by speaking. So I will give this a try. And maybe write a book in the meantime :)