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I had a blast today. First - a huge surprise at work, then a party at home, and a package from my family!
There were balloons (lots!) and candles, and a delicious cake :)
Some snapshots:

Time off

Tomorrow the good weather is supposed to change into cold and rainy again, so there won't be celebrations at the beach, by a disposable grill... But I don't worry too much, because on early Friday morning I am leaving to Paris!!! And even if it happens that we bring some rainy weather to France, I don't care - it's going to be an amazing four days' break. Speeding in the super-fast train in the tunnel under the sea, walking by Seine, buying fridge magnets to our collection and fresh croissants, spending lots of time in Disneyland, feeling free and ridiculously happy like a kid again... :)

On top of that, today I booked some time off at work and I bought my plane and train tickets, so I am ready to go and see my family in July... exciting events to look forward to, and one of them so close already!

Wishes

On the eve of my birthday I received first wishes - from far away, from one of my best friends. She sent me a lovely card in a green envelope, where I also found a magnet with a cute kitten :) Such a lovely surprise!

As it's Mother's Day tomorrow as well (in my homeland), I also sent a card with wishes to my Mum a couple of days ago, and she already got it yesterday. She really liked it, so I am happy.

The weekend is over. The dream of the afternoon on the beach, of the sunshine and lazyness, has to be put off for a while... Sometimes I regret I signed up for further studies! I love studying, I love spending time on my interests and passions, and I hate the feeling of wasted time and boredom. But, on the other hand, I love the taste of the lack of responsibility and the lightness of the "zero" things to do...
Oh well, I better finish moaning and start preparations for the next essay. The good news is - I got an A grade for the last one :) The other good news is - I am tanned :)

Summer!

Finally! Seems like summer arrived. I hope it won't leave too soon. Otherwise I will be absolutely mad...
Today we were having delicious juicy watermelons and then went to sunbathe on the beach. The weather is perfect. We have to catch literally every moment of this hot, sunny time, because it can be gone any day...
Now I realised why I was so tired those last days, weeks... I just needed more sun. The warmer it is, the more energy I have.
I should probably live in Australia ;)

Some music for today.
This is one my favourite songs by Tori Amos...

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Another bunch of examples of the little things that make me happy recently. This time - material objects ;) I bought them last weekend and they are so lovely that I can't stop looking at them and smiling. They are so colourful, bright and happy...

I love how little things make me happy and excited recently :)

For example, it's so amazing to hear the birds singing in the early evening, when the sun slowly sets... We have no trees on our street, there is just a small park nearby, but I can hear them in my flat, while I am sitting on the sofa and typing this...
Or the workout today in the morning - gives me so much of joy and positive energy for whole day, not only because I feel good physically, but also because I know I did something good for myself, for my wellbeing...

I miss my family. It's been 8 weeks since I've seen them. I am planning a small summer holiday at home, hoping that any ash cloud won't stop me from going :)

And I also hope that with the long bright days and the birds singing, the proper summer weather comes quickly! I want to lie in the sun :)

Freedom

I had to find these few minutes to paste this.
Sometimes the world does NOT fit into my little head with my huge imagination. I don't know whether to laugh or to cry. I guess that it would be a bitter laughter with bitter tears.



More to read here.

Recently I read an article where a young woman who converted to Islam two years ago, declared that she has never felt so free before.

Bitter laughter and bitter tears. But not mine.

And it's not that I want to condemn any beliefs. I am just sorry for those who cannot escape although they want to. And I am sorry for those who believe they could escape whenever they want.

No, I am not being lazy. I just don't have time for writing a proper post. I promise I will do something about it very soon.
There are some thoughts running (and some walking) around my head, it would be good to pour them in here... I just have to organise them into sentences :)
And have to throw away my roses, they are all dead now and look pretty depressing...

And - still waiting for proper SPRING!

My roses are dying...

Music

The weekend was creepy. I was stuck at home, feeling so weak and tired that I couldn't get up from the sofa. I didn't finish my essay, I couldn't go to the gym. And the weather was awful, changing every five minutes. I still cannot survive a day without nose drops and a bunch of tissues. I don't know how I will make it to work tomorrow :(

For the end of this weekend and just before jumping into the cruel world of everydayness I wanted to share here a bite of sweetness. Some music. But it didn't quite work out. Sorry.

This is one of my favourite songs recently... Beautiful lyrics and music. I guess sometimes everyone of us feels a bit like that. If you want an can, you can to listen to bits of it on last.fm, otherwise you would have to buy it :(

Oh yeah, by the way :) The song is called "Out on a limb", it's written and performed by Heather Nova, and here are the lyrics:

I'm looking through to what this all comes down to
I'm looking for just a little more, a taste of happiness
This world keeps spinning me around, I can't see clearly
I got no way to find the ground and I've gotta move on

But what if I fall?
What if I fail?
What if I find I'm out on a limb?
And what if I fly?
What if I sail?
What if I find that it's better than ever before?

Red sky at night, you tell me there's good yet to come
I think I might find a little more, a taste of happiness
I've built these walls around myself, I can't see over
And all these lines I tell myself, so I don't have to try

Cause what if I fall?
What if I fail?
What if I find I'm out on a limb?
And what if I fly?
What if I sail?
What if I find that it's better than ever before?

Cause what if I fall?
What if I fail?
What if I find I'm out on a limb?
And what if I fly?
What if I sail?
What if I find that it's better than ever, yeah

What if I fall?
What if I fail?
What if I find I'm out on a limb?
And what if I fly?
What if I sail?
What if I find that it's better than ever before?
Better than ever before
Better than ever before

Flowers