I got it stuck in my head like the song you hear the first thing in the morning and cannot stop humming until you feel asleep at night...
I want to start doing something good. Something for others. And not like - just some volunteering stuff, to have this "feel good" factor in my life. Not a free time activity.
I want it full time. I want this to be one of my priorities, which occupy my mind on a daily basis. I want to give myself away, be humbled, be engaged, be for others, and give whatever they might need.
I don't know what I could do. I know generally what I can do, and probably what I do better than worse, but how do I find out who needs my skills? How to use them and where?
It doesn't have to be anything special. Not thinking about flying away to Africa and saving children's lives... I just want to be useful. Here and now. Make a difference. Not a big one. Just a very tiny one. Like the one when the bus driver actually smiles at you when you come into the bus. That makes a difference to me, it makes the start or the end of my day so much better.
Okay, so I said it out loud (actually I wrote it). So what's the next step, what's the next step?