Day packed with pleasure...

I just love sunny weekends and Saturdays spent with my beloved!!! Sundays are also cool, but everyone agrees that Saturdays are better, at least for this one reason, that after Saturday you still have Sunday :)
Our latest Saturday was totally packed with fun and pleasure - first, we got the packages from the post office, which my beloved's mother sent to us. Two huge boxes! Full of great stuff, food, sweets and gifts. I got three scarfs, from which one was hand made, and a box of colourful and delicious jellies. We also got some special cookies (addictive indeed!) and a book about their new year's celebrations, and many many more great things.
After unpacking all the stuff, we had breakfast and we went to town. The weather was weird, once sunny and warm, then in a second it was becoming cold and rainy... As we were about to finish our walkabout, instead of going home, we decided to play pool :) I am not good at it, but at least we spent some time on trainig our skills, and in the end I even won once!
We also had some pizza and chicken in a restuarant nearby - delicious meal in a cosy place, and it felt so good to just sit and talk a bit, watching the rain outside... After that, we watched a movie in the cinema, the newest one with Julia Roberts and Clive Owen, "Duplicity". Difficult one, but I liked it, and in the end I was happy I understood what was actullay going on :)
The evening at home was also great, it was so good that we forgot to change our clocks and we did it today in the morning!
Today so far we had a nice walk by the seaside with some ice cream, and we made lunch together... Looking forward to a nice evening, I have to turn to my books for a while...

In 5 months...

Yes... Exactly in 5 months, on the 29th of August, right at this time we'll be flying high and far away for our fantastic, hot and sunny and exotic holidays! Now, as we sorted all the stuff, I can offically and proudly and happily annouce, that we are going - yes, we are - to Canary Islands! Our first dream-holiday (okay, actually second, last year we had a very special dream-holiday, who knows - knows!) is coming true and I am sure that these will be amazing days, which will give us lots of relax, laughter and interesting things to see and do...
We are going to Fuerteventura, beautiful eastern island, and we will stay on the north coast, near the great beaches. We can also visit two other islands, which are close enough to get there by boat in about half an hour. There is also a zoo on the island and a couple of camel farms, and old volcanos and mountians which we can climb... Can't wait really, but waiting for this awesome trip makes it even more exciting!
Oh, and here are some pictures from this dreamy place:

Wrestling

A couple of days ago I saw the new movie by Darren Aronofsky, with amazing performance of Mickey Rourke as the main character. "The wrestler" is undoubtely worth seeing an remembering. It's strong and shocking, but at the same time - very simple and very true.
The years following the great career of the wrestler Ram show how important is - not only career, not only catching the moment and taking the best of it (also it is important to think about what "best" means in this case) - but also, or first of call, caring about the people we love, being with them and for them when they need us, thinking not only about present, but about future as well.
It is extremely sad to discover at the end of the way that there is noone by our side to support us. Ram had lots of fans, who were there for him during his final fight. But although there were so many more of them than friends or family anyone could wish to have, all in all, they were strangers. They gave him hope and pride, but they didn't share his problems and could not help him in the way that could lead his life into happiness.

Winter? Spring?

There is a saying in my language "in March as in a pan". It means that the weather in March is usually very diversified. You can expect sunny, warm days, as well as rain, wind and lots of snow. As in to a pan, you can put there everything.
I have to agree with this sentence with my whole heart :) Yesterday we had a beautiful sunny day and today it was cold, very windy and rainy. And my Dad sent me some pictures from home, where 30cm of snow appeared last night...

Home

It is so true that time passes by the quickest when you are spending it in a good, happy way. And so there we are - a couple of days ago a couple of thousand kilometers away, and now again back in here. Time has gone so fast, as it was sooo good being in my home country, in my home town, at home...
Out flight there was full of attractions - first, I met my friend on board (she works as a stewardess) and then we landed in snow! It was absolutely white everywhere, windy and snowy and extremely cold! (not mentioning that we departed from a place where was about 10 degress and lots of sun...)
The four days were busy but very relaxing as well. We had time to do our blood tests, but also to go to our favorite shop and get some favorite juice. We watched a movie altogether with our family and we also made a small slide show on a wall in the living room. We celebrated my sister's birthday and went altogether to play bowling and pool.
It was a short, but refreshing break away from everydayness. We had a great time and the only sad thing is, that now again we both miss our family, these places and these good times...

Being home again made me think - again - about what home really is, what does the word home mean to me. My beloved also asked me this question when we were coming back from the airport to our house. I said what I read somewhere and I think is very accurate: Home is the hearts that are waiting and beating for you.
It is hard for me to say where my one and only home is, and if actually there should be just one home. My family home will be always there, in my home country, in the town where I was growing up and where my parents live. It seems like I always keep my mind focused on this place as my real and only home, but whenever I am coming back there, I catch myself on thinking about the place I currently live in, and also on being a bit disappointed or maybe rather kind of mistaken about my "old" home. When I come there, it feels sometimes like I don't really belong there anymore, not fully. Times have changed, places have changed, and people - including me.
I feel that now is the time when I'm creating my new home, the home which might be the most important one in the future. When it comes to a physical place, I don't think I have already found it. But, as the mentioned sentence says, home is not only a place. Home is made of people who love each other and who care abou each other. Agreeing with that I have to admit that my present (and hopefully future) home is a bit spreaded worldwide :) That sometimes brings difficulties, but the most important thing is that - my home exists :)


My sister's birthday cake - as usual made by mum and as usual delicious, with whipped cream and fruit in jelly, and coated with thick dark chocolate...

YEAH

In 3 days we will be at the airport, going home for four days! Yeah!
And - I finished the first version of my essay, which means that now I have to make one thousand amendments, and it will be ready :)

A bit of fresh air...

We had a walk today in the afternoon, it was quite warm and not too windy, so we could afford walking by the seaside. But it seems like my beloved is on the edge of catching cold (the nights here are still not warm enough for him), and I feel guilty for going out. We should have stayed at home. But I will do my best, as his personal doctor, to save him from fever and this whole painful heaviness, which is attacking him. I also have to protect myself, as in a couple of days we are going to see our family! Can't really waste this time by being not-so-well...

I am quite tired, as I couldn't sleep as long as I am able to on random Saturday morning. Today was my second tutorial and of course I am happy I managed to get there and be there, but my body reminds me about the lack of my usual weekly lazy morning. Well, I will have to postpone it for tomorrow. And then, when I finally wake up, I have to write my essay... Seems to be quite easy, as everything I planned to write was mentioned during tutorial and made me feel more confident, but still - writing in English, eight pages in a row, trying to use scientific language and these weird references (absolutely not like the ones I used to make) is a piece of hard work... I have time till Wednesday :)

For the good beginning...

...of the weekend, here are some pictures from sunny Australia :) Not too soon (which is good, as I need to prepare myself for that), we are going to be there... Doesn't matter for how long really. I think we will stay just as long as we want. Yeay :D

Springtime

Can you imagine anything that makes your mood 100% better more than your beloved coming back home in the evening and bringing a bunch of flowers for you??? These are my beautiful, beautiful tulips... I have sprigtime in my house and in my heart...

Squeezing the juice!

Okay, so after dreadful, sleepy, creepy days, which were nothing but painful waking up in the morning and endless counting hours to the next weekend, after struggling with work, studies, lack of free time, feeling guilty for doing too much and for doing not enough, I am getting over it.
I made a strong resolution to stop crying over myself. My life is made of my choices and if I want to achieve the goals I have, I must be strong! So, from now on, I am trying to resist doing-nothing time, this absolutely useless state of being constantly tired, and instead - start fighting it.
Just more coffee, please!
And everything will be fine :)

Hooolidays!

Sooo... it happend! Finally! Yesterday night we booked our holidays! Our very first, real, exotic, far away and very hot-and-sunny holidays! Eight days and nights on a beautiful island... Doesn't matter I have nearly half year to wait for it. It is worth waiting for, I'm sure :)
And in about a week time we will heading to the airport to go to my home country!!! Just four days, or maybe WHOLE four days for seeing my family, hanging around and most of all, having good, relaxing, fun time. Cannot wait!

Struggling with reality

Last weekend was a great relaxing time for me, and now it's Monday and after a whole day at work I feel like reality is sqeezing all the energy from me and pushing me to the ground. I am drowning in tiredness, wishing I could just jump into bed and fall asleep. But my mind fights with this vision, as I there is more in life than just working, eating and sleeping... So as soon as my beloved comes back from work (tired even more), we will make some pancakes and have some chilling out time... Not mentioning that my books are also waiting for my attention, and I will feel really guilty if I ignore them tonight :)

This is why...

... I want to go to Australia and New Zealand. For a year, for two, or for five years, or forever. They say that the sense which has the greatest influence on human beings' perception of the world is the sense of sight...
For now - bits of New Zealand...

A suitcase

Last Saturday I finally got myself a small suitcase, which I can take on board as a hand baggage, when I am travelling by plane. So now, whenever I go home for a couple of days, or for a trip that doesn't require too much stuff to take with, I can use my brand new, navy, light and handy, and hopefully strong baby :) Happy I am :)
Another good piece of news (comparing to the one above that is a great and overwhelming piece of news!) is that my beloved called the consulate on Wednesday and he got the Schengen Visa! Now not only we can both go and visit my family whenever we want, but also, as he's been told, we can travel to any country in Schengen area, which gives us lots of opportunities! Isn't it wonderful???
So this weekend we are planning to sit down, have a look at some places and deals, and maybe choose a decent destinantion for our small Easter break...
I really feel we both need a holiday, even if it's 3 or 4 days only. I know my beloved is tired with constant work, in working hours and after them, as recently he tries to cut it down. Me, on the other hand, I was coping well with my work until I got involved into my studies. Reading in English, about quite difficult stuff, is a real challenge for me, and as usual, I don't want to fail. I was not even fully satisfied with the result of my first essay, although considering my situation and skills I should be proud of myslef probably...
I am too ambitious or maybe too hard working, thinking too much as it is an ideal world. I really need to slow down, if I don't want to fall apart. What's worse, if WE don't want to fall apart...
So tonight I will try to chill out in the gym and enjoy the weekend!

March it is!

... and it feels nearly like spring is already here, especially when the sun shines for the whole day long...
Today I made a list of the things I would like to do in the next 2-3 years. Of course they are not ALL the things, but some main, big ones. And also, they are not "goals" which I have to achieve, but, you know, it would be nice :)
So, here it goes:
2009:
- go for holidays to a sunny and hot, quite exotic place
- finish my first and start second course at university (and decide towards which qualification I am studying!)
- make my last year dream finally come true, which is spending Christmas with my beloved and my family, altogether, in my home country
2010:
- if I decide to study for Diploma in Religious Studies - receive it!
- pass IELTS exam (and get of course at least 7.0, do you think I have any chances?)
- this one is big - get married :)
- go for an awesome honeymoon :)
- go to Australia/New Zealand, and find a job
2011:
- start PhD studies (I read somewhere that academic year in Australia starts in January, hehe)
- do some travelling around, if I have time next to work and studies
2012:
- as I will be 29 already... and heading towards 30... maybe give birth to a baby??? :)
Okay, so far so much. As I said, I feel no pressure to really do all these things, because I know that life can change totally in one day. These are just some possibilities, a path drawn with a pencil...