It's Sunday morning and I feel ashmed writing this post and seeing that the last time I wrote something here was about a week ago... I am so busy lately! And it's not that kind of being busy in a positive way, like finally doing things you didn't have time for, or preparing something exciting... In my life, it's random: too much work, too many responsibilities, and still I feel guilty, because I think I should do better.
Well, I am just a human and next week I will have make choices to avoid feeling tired and sleepy all the time. I have to go through my study readings before the tutorial next Saturday, so this will be my priority. I also don't want to resign from the gym, because the classes make me feel good physically and psychically. And if I need to work longer - I probably will, because simply I need a bit of extra money... So I will probably give up on cooking again for a while. And the flat maybe could clean itself from time to time? ;)
Sunday 28 February 2010
Monday 22 February 2010
Oscars coming soon
There's one night in a year when I regret I don't have a tv... It's the Oscars' night. When I was a teenager I used to stay up nearly for whole night and watch the ceremony. Of course with the lights turned off and the volume turned to minimum, to let the whole family sleep :)
It was so exciting for me, and it still is. I hope I will at least find some good bits online on the next day...
I have my types, of course, and I will have my fingers crossed. Last year I was jumping up and down when I found out than Kate Winslet got the prize for the best actress :)
It was so exciting for me, and it still is. I hope I will at least find some good bits online on the next day...
I have my types, of course, and I will have my fingers crossed. Last year I was jumping up and down when I found out than Kate Winslet got the prize for the best actress :)
Sunday 21 February 2010
Dreams
I decided to follow my dreams. Or at least this what seems to be my dreams right now.
I didn't apply for the job I wrote about before (a couple of days ago?). It is true that I really do need a change at work. I have to do something new, something different, something more creative or at least satisfying in any possible way. But I don't want this particular job, because I am not ready for the commitments it brings.
I had my moments of hesitation and silent conversations with myself, arguing about all the benefits I could gain from getting the job and, on the other hand, the disadvantages...
In the end, while I was emailing with the head of heads of my workplace (I don't really know how this happened, but I didn't start it for sure!), I ended up explaining - I think more to myself than to the "higher power" - why I won't even try.
Dreams - I think that they slightly change with us, while we are growing up, meeting different people, face new situations and reflect on them... I always ALWAYS, which means since I was about five and I learned how to read and write, wanted to become a writer. Well, that's not a job you can really learn and much depends of your talent and also determination, because writing is a long, slow and hard process... So, as you can imagine, that didn't go well so far. I have tried journalism writing and I am pretty good at it. I started blogging. I had a few ideas for a book, but while I was in high school I switched for a while into cinema and my ideas were more about creating scenarios for my movies in the future :)
Anyway. I met many people in my life and some of them had significant influence on me. I've been to a couple places and experienced things that are hard for me to describe in words. This all led to shaping my way of seeing things... And I understood recently, that it's not just about writing. It's about sharing the thoughts, about having something to say to the world. And even if I am never able to actually write about this something, I could at least try to share my thoughts by speaking. So I will give this a try. And maybe write a book in the meantime :)
I didn't apply for the job I wrote about before (a couple of days ago?). It is true that I really do need a change at work. I have to do something new, something different, something more creative or at least satisfying in any possible way. But I don't want this particular job, because I am not ready for the commitments it brings.
I had my moments of hesitation and silent conversations with myself, arguing about all the benefits I could gain from getting the job and, on the other hand, the disadvantages...
In the end, while I was emailing with the head of heads of my workplace (I don't really know how this happened, but I didn't start it for sure!), I ended up explaining - I think more to myself than to the "higher power" - why I won't even try.
Dreams - I think that they slightly change with us, while we are growing up, meeting different people, face new situations and reflect on them... I always ALWAYS, which means since I was about five and I learned how to read and write, wanted to become a writer. Well, that's not a job you can really learn and much depends of your talent and also determination, because writing is a long, slow and hard process... So, as you can imagine, that didn't go well so far. I have tried journalism writing and I am pretty good at it. I started blogging. I had a few ideas for a book, but while I was in high school I switched for a while into cinema and my ideas were more about creating scenarios for my movies in the future :)
Anyway. I met many people in my life and some of them had significant influence on me. I've been to a couple places and experienced things that are hard for me to describe in words. This all led to shaping my way of seeing things... And I understood recently, that it's not just about writing. It's about sharing the thoughts, about having something to say to the world. And even if I am never able to actually write about this something, I could at least try to share my thoughts by speaking. So I will give this a try. And maybe write a book in the meantime :)
Monday 15 February 2010
Inspired
Last weekend my beloved found this personality test online. It's a test based on Jung and Myers-Briggs typology, and it contains 72 closed questions.
I did it, and my results were shoking to me... I read the descripion of the group that I belong to (there are four main groups: Guardians, Rationals, Artisans and Idealists - I am in the last one), and every line was so accurate! I couldn't describe myself better! Even more - I could understand myself better when I read this...
Inside the Idealists' group I belong to a group of Mentors, and as a specific type I am a "Teacher". This doesn't mean I should work in school, but apparently I have phenomenal interpersonal skills :)
I think that might influence my career choices... Enough that it already boosted my confidence and inspired to look for something more creative to do... Even if nothing appropriate comes up for a while, I believe I would be a great parent at least :)
Try it yourself, the test is avaiable here.
About the Idealists (me!):
- Idealists are enthusiastic, they trust their intuition, yearn for romance, seek their true self, prize meaningful relationships, and dream of attaining wisdom.
- Idealists pride themselves on being loving, kindhearted, and authentic.
- Idealists tend to be giving, trusting, spiritual, and they are focused on personal journeys and human potentials.
- Idealists make intense mates, nurturing parents, and inspirational leaders.
Idealists (...) are passionately concerned with personal growth and development. Idealists strive to discover who they are and how they can become their best possible self - always this quest for self-knowledge and self-improvement drives their imagination. And they want to help others make the journey. Idealists are naturally drawn to working with people, and whether in education or counseling, in social services or personnel work, in journalism or the ministry, they are gifted at helping others find their way in life, often inspiring them to grow as individuals and to fulfill their potentials. (...)
I did it, and my results were shoking to me... I read the descripion of the group that I belong to (there are four main groups: Guardians, Rationals, Artisans and Idealists - I am in the last one), and every line was so accurate! I couldn't describe myself better! Even more - I could understand myself better when I read this...
Inside the Idealists' group I belong to a group of Mentors, and as a specific type I am a "Teacher". This doesn't mean I should work in school, but apparently I have phenomenal interpersonal skills :)
I think that might influence my career choices... Enough that it already boosted my confidence and inspired to look for something more creative to do... Even if nothing appropriate comes up for a while, I believe I would be a great parent at least :)
Try it yourself, the test is avaiable here.
About the Idealists (me!):
- Idealists are enthusiastic, they trust their intuition, yearn for romance, seek their true self, prize meaningful relationships, and dream of attaining wisdom.
- Idealists pride themselves on being loving, kindhearted, and authentic.
- Idealists tend to be giving, trusting, spiritual, and they are focused on personal journeys and human potentials.
- Idealists make intense mates, nurturing parents, and inspirational leaders.
Idealists (...) are passionately concerned with personal growth and development. Idealists strive to discover who they are and how they can become their best possible self - always this quest for self-knowledge and self-improvement drives their imagination. And they want to help others make the journey. Idealists are naturally drawn to working with people, and whether in education or counseling, in social services or personnel work, in journalism or the ministry, they are gifted at helping others find their way in life, often inspiring them to grow as individuals and to fulfill their potentials. (...)
Sunday 14 February 2010
:)
Happy Valentine's Day to everyone... wherever you are, whatever you do, however you feel about today...
Saturday 13 February 2010
One more
I could not resist... Tonight is Alanis Morissette evening. This time - one of the songs that maybe didn't become a classic, but it's a really beautiful piece of her music, revealing deep, moving lyrics...
Music
One my whole-life-favourite artists, Alanis Morissette.
I started listening to her when I was 13, and since then I couldn't switch back to any kind of boysband-type of performance, in a broad meaning of this word.
This song is not hers, it's The Police cover, but I like it a lot. I like the whole "Unplugged" album muchly, it is in a way special, different than all the others, maybe because of the "unplugged" music, maybe because of the live performing and the contact with the audience.
Well, anyway, I don't know why I am posting it today, but I think it's a decent piece of music for Saturday evening... Enjoy.
I started listening to her when I was 13, and since then I couldn't switch back to any kind of boysband-type of performance, in a broad meaning of this word.
This song is not hers, it's The Police cover, but I like it a lot. I like the whole "Unplugged" album muchly, it is in a way special, different than all the others, maybe because of the "unplugged" music, maybe because of the live performing and the contact with the audience.
Well, anyway, I don't know why I am posting it today, but I think it's a decent piece of music for Saturday evening... Enjoy.
Secret
Okay, so tomorrow's Valentine's Day. You could say many different things about it: that it's a special day for those who are secretly in love so they can finally get the courage and reveal their feelings; that it's a depressing day for those who are alone and do not count on any surprising valentine; or that it's a fantastic day to make money on selling flowers, sweets, heart-shaped ballons and lots of cheap cheesy stuff with hearts on it.
But I like this day. Maybe because when you are in a relationship for a while, it gets really hard to make every day somehow special. And this day, except from our anniversaries, can be an opportuninty to celebrate our happiness in a very extraordinary way.
So, it is tomorrow and my beloved got something for me and hid it in a closet. And I know it is hidden there because there's no many places in our house where you can hide something :) He went out to the gym and was afraid I would spoil my surprise because of my immense curiosity, so...
He has warned me. How could he not believe in my strong will and good intentions? ;)
But I like this day. Maybe because when you are in a relationship for a while, it gets really hard to make every day somehow special. And this day, except from our anniversaries, can be an opportuninty to celebrate our happiness in a very extraordinary way.
So, it is tomorrow and my beloved got something for me and hid it in a closet. And I know it is hidden there because there's no many places in our house where you can hide something :) He went out to the gym and was afraid I would spoil my surprise because of my immense curiosity, so...
He has warned me. How could he not believe in my strong will and good intentions? ;)
Friday 12 February 2010
Best photograph of the year
Today I read online which picture was chosen in World Press Photo 2010 competition to be the best photograph of the year. I must admit that I am very happy, because the situation presented on the photograph and the atmosphere captured on it are very close to my heart.
The photograph shows Iranian women protesting - on the roofs of their houses, after dark. They are shouting "Allahu akbar", expressing their rage against the unjustice and dictatorship in the islamic republic.
There's a small version of the picture:
And here you can see it bigger, and also have a look at the winners in different categories.
The photograph shows Iranian women protesting - on the roofs of their houses, after dark. They are shouting "Allahu akbar", expressing their rage against the unjustice and dictatorship in the islamic republic.
There's a small version of the picture:
And here you can see it bigger, and also have a look at the winners in different categories.
Tuesday 9 February 2010
Calculations
noise/mobile phone call = miscommunication
miscommunication + lack of further communication = misunderstanding
misunderstanding x expectations = dissapointment/confusion
(dissapointment/confusion)2 + sadness = depression
(depression + good will) x (accusation + insult) = frustration
So beware. Don't pick up mobile phones when you do shopping in a supermarket. You may feel very sad and mad after all.
miscommunication + lack of further communication = misunderstanding
misunderstanding x expectations = dissapointment/confusion
(dissapointment/confusion)2 + sadness = depression
(depression + good will) x (accusation + insult) = frustration
So beware. Don't pick up mobile phones when you do shopping in a supermarket. You may feel very sad and mad after all.
Seasons
So it was sleeting yesterday. Just when I thought that the winter here is over. And it's so cold!
When I get ready in morning, I can hear birds singing outside. I wish I could take this sounds with me to work... When I come back and walk near the seaside, I hear the same birds singing. I wish I could take them home...
When I get ready in morning, I can hear birds singing outside. I wish I could take this sounds with me to work... When I come back and walk near the seaside, I hear the same birds singing. I wish I could take them home...
Friday 5 February 2010
Weekend...
This week was so strangely tiring for me that I am on top of my mood tonight... I guess when you have someone ill at home and you try to be empathetic, you somehow get into their condition... plu shopping, cooking and cleaning on top of that...
But at least for the next two days I don't have to go to work :) Let the weekend begin!
To start with, I have my first tutorial tomorrow morning, so I have to wake up quite early (well, not very early, but still I cannot say I can sleep as much as I want), and I will be busy until lunchtime. And then - I don't know yet. I just know that I have to relax and that I want to have some fun. This way I will hopefully be able to survive another week, go back to the gym, write my first essay... and celebrate my small celebration occasions :)
But at least for the next two days I don't have to go to work :) Let the weekend begin!
To start with, I have my first tutorial tomorrow morning, so I have to wake up quite early (well, not very early, but still I cannot say I can sleep as much as I want), and I will be busy until lunchtime. And then - I don't know yet. I just know that I have to relax and that I want to have some fun. This way I will hopefully be able to survive another week, go back to the gym, write my first essay... and celebrate my small celebration occasions :)
Thursday 4 February 2010
Moving
It's very possible that this post will be the last one you're going to read... in here. I am planning a re-organisation of my blog to widen my possibilities and to make it prettier and more interesting. It might take a couple of days to make it work, but I have already transferred all the posts, so you will be able to read the archive as well.
The name of the blog and the link will be slightly different too, but I will put all the details here.
Hope you will like the new look :)
The name of the blog and the link will be slightly different too, but I will put all the details here.
Hope you will like the new look :)
Fourth time lucky?
And it happened. There is a new opportunity to change my job. Gosh, how I really really want to get it...
For the last year and a half I tried three times, for three different positions and I every time I was rejected. Maybe this time it will my lucky one?
The job would require even more commitment and a perspective of hard work on personal development, but isn's this something that I love?
Anyway, we will see soon...
If not, I will keep on thinking about the alternatives... As I found out today, after getting my Diploma in Religious Studies I would JUST need to get PGCE to able to teach. Studying part-time probably would take me more than one year, but I cannot say for sure - I have to do some research first.
For the last year and a half I tried three times, for three different positions and I every time I was rejected. Maybe this time it will my lucky one?
The job would require even more commitment and a perspective of hard work on personal development, but isn's this something that I love?
Anyway, we will see soon...
If not, I will keep on thinking about the alternatives... As I found out today, after getting my Diploma in Religious Studies I would JUST need to get PGCE to able to teach. Studying part-time probably would take me more than one year, but I cannot say for sure - I have to do some research first.
Tuesday 2 February 2010
3
I did three good things today. Or, as my friend corrected me: good deeds. Sounds big! ;)
It started with two, and then I thought: I could try to make it three today, although the day was nearly finished...
First, I wanted to take some cash from the cashpoint and I let the other person first.
Then, on the bus, there was this guy pretty confused with his bus ticket and when he asked me, I explained to him how it works.
And in the end, when I was at home and actually realised I've done two good things today and how cool it would be to do three, a phone rang. It was one of these annoying calls with "one-minute survey", but the girl on the phone was so desperate that I thought: Okay, whatever... at least it would make three!
The funny bit is that at the beginning I didn't even realise... And now this makes me feel so good that I think I will cook dinner tomorrow! A real one! ;)
It started with two, and then I thought: I could try to make it three today, although the day was nearly finished...
First, I wanted to take some cash from the cashpoint and I let the other person first.
Then, on the bus, there was this guy pretty confused with his bus ticket and when he asked me, I explained to him how it works.
And in the end, when I was at home and actually realised I've done two good things today and how cool it would be to do three, a phone rang. It was one of these annoying calls with "one-minute survey", but the girl on the phone was so desperate that I thought: Okay, whatever... at least it would make three!
The funny bit is that at the beginning I didn't even realise... And now this makes me feel so good that I think I will cook dinner tomorrow! A real one! ;)
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