As I promised, now comes more serious part. The wedding dress is of course not the most crucial decision to make in my life in the near(est) future. First of all, my life is not only mine anymore, it is our life. And the shape we will give to this life, the way we will choose to follow, the decisions we will make have to be a result of conversation and exchange of our points of view, a comparison of our dreams and visions. It is one of the hardest tasks we receive in life, but if we resolve it in a good way, we will be very happy and that is the great reward I am willing to get!
Yesterday while walking down the streets, eating donuts, visiting shops in the search of gifts for my family, we were talking about our future and how do we want to manage it. The future always seems to be... in the future, but actually it is right behind the corner, it is nearly happening now, as the time is passing by constatntly... I think we both have a strong need of feeling safe and comfortable, and that is why my beloved would like to get us our own place to live as soon as possible. I understand him, and only if we could afford it without any efforts, I would agree for that straight away. But it is not that easy, when there is an effort to be made, and when we don't even know yet, how much this move is going to cost us, not only in a financial meaning. And, if I had to choose right now, I could not decide where actually I want to live...
My plans are to see as much of the world as possible - or at least a couple of "huge" places, which are far away, and not easy to explore, and in general - are usually not reachable for a family with a small kid and a mortgage to pay. This way of spending next year or two or three sounds crazy and somewhat risky, but I have a feeling we may not have another chance in life to do that. And maybe after going to Australia, New Zealand and the States, we would finally know where is our place on Earth? (of course there is a possibility that we won't find it being in these few countries, but still, we will have more chances to explore their neighbourhood...)
Ah, decisions...
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